Doomed and Gloomy

 I can't imagine how long it has been since I sat down to write. It's not like I didn't have enough ideas, but simply the mere predicament---I didn't feel like writing anything. A lot has happened. Without me even realising it properly, Durga Puja (one of my favourite festivals) came and went. It was one of a kind. And even as I sit here; I'm realising right now that Diwali will be here by the end of this week. But can we call that a festival of lights? Where exactly is the "light"?

 Its been really strange these past few months. Mainly because it was suddenly declared that my Maths elective exams will be held; after all. I completely froze...and am still frozen to bits; quietly anticipating the repercussions of this announcement. It was majorly because of this, that I wasn't able to write these past few weeks. I somehow felt that writing about something happy would immediately steal the happiness from my life. Put simply, I kept believing that journaling (doing something that makes me happy) would later come as punishment in the form of an offline maths exam. I am still dreading it but I couldn't hold back anymore.

 Nothing much is up right now. Classes have started. I have started watching an anime for the first time. It's called Fairy Tail. I had first been recommended this anime by a friend whom I treasured very much. She had gifted me with self-drawn images of two very important scenes from the anime. Now that I have watched the series for quite some time...I realise those screencaps are my most favourite emotions. But somewhere down the line, I lost the images as well as my friend. I don't know how it happened but the pang in my heart hasn't waned yet. I was desperately hoping to find those drawings. But more importantly, I wanted to thank my old friend for the wonderful recommendation and paintings...now that I finally understand their significance. I tried to find her but in vain. I hope someday I'll be able to thank her.

                                                

I remember you loved cherry blossoms and Japan. If only I could find your painted presents...

 But for now, thank you for the wonderful recommendation dear friend. You have helped me in more ways than one, and I only wish we could stay friends still. Fairy Tail sure is a great show and right up my alley too! Arigato gozaimasu.