Being overwhelmed

 Over the past few weeks, I have been really overwhelmed with everything. My brain had gone into overdrive mode and to say the least, it wasn't very pleasant. 

              My thoughts were racing beyond my control. 

After spending weeks after weeks or rather months after months away from academics...suddenly my university decided that it was time to get things running, and finally complete the present semester. So all of a sudden, all the professors started taking classes. They threw work at us and expected us to be ready for the exams in three weeks' time. Some of them were considerate, and took our mental health into account while deciding an evaluation procedure...and some did not. It was a total mess.

Hence for the first time, I realised that I couldn't do two posts a week anymore. And, I missed last Wednesday's post.

I don't like feeling overwhelmed. It's one of my most unpleasant memories. It has always led to anxiety. When I was finally feeling less anxious, I made a promise to myself: I needed to enjoy life as well. I had always grown up knowing that my academics was my first priority and enjoying life was second.

              But this view changed...

                                                         

My brain has been going into overdrive mode and conjuring up unnecessary thoughts.

After my very unpleasant experience with anxiety attacks, I accidentally discovered a YouTube channel...of a doctor studying and practising in Cambridge. Till date, I always go back to him for advice any time I feel that life is too much. In one of his videos, he said that for him having fun was always the first priority, learning and working in academics was something he did to make his first priority come true. This revelation opened my mind. I finally realised what I was doing wrong. I had been so laser focussed on getting my grades right, that I had forgotten what I was working so hard for!

So that is what I have been trying to do. Have a little bit of fun along with my necessary work. There's still a tonne of work that I need to complete, so I better leave now. But next week I'll be back on a more positive note! Hopefully...