Missing People

I don't know if saying this makes me a cold person...but I hardly ever miss people. Mind you though, I have never found myself in a situation with completely unknown people. For the most part, I have stayed with some member of my family. And for the rest, I have been surrounded by friends---some really close, and some not so much.                                               

Do you associate happiness with some very special people too?

Sometimes, when I am in a really uncomfortable situation; I miss home...or more precisely my idea of "home". My idea of "home" doesn't include any person necessarily. I can feel "at home" all by myself even! But my most important requirement is mental peace. Any place or person that can provide me with this peace is home to me.

During this lockdown, I found myself longing to be around some very special people. Upon further introspection, I understood that this desire came from an intense longing to be at peace with myself. I realised that whenever I am with these angels (as I think of them) my mind is at rest and as a result, even in the most difficult moments I somehow find the strength to power through. And I missed them...I missed "home".

I try not to attach myself too intricately with people or things. But I guess when you find yourself in a really frustrating position in life; from where there is no immediate escape...you long to be with someone who will somewhat alleviate the pain...consciously, or even unconsciously. 

Every time life gets unbearable here (very frequently); I find myself longing to leave all this behind and starting my own chapter---with the people who make me happy...with the ones who make me appreciate life. 

              Does that mean I miss them?                                   

Are you missing someone?